Monday, September 23, 2013

Bless Me

    Did you know I'm going to college for graphic design?  I'm still a long way off from graduating, but I have been doing graphics now for over 7 years as a self taught artist.  I'm hoping that college will give me a better understanding of business, get me a little better trained, and help me to get a real job someday. :) 
   One thing that college is definitely doing for me right now, is inspiring me to do some work.  And, if I'm going to be working on graphics, what better thing to draw out than something to do with crocheting?  I <3 crochet!

So it started out as a REALLY rough drawing in my idea journal. 

Then I started playing around with drawing it on the computer.
Ick.  Yeah, I tossed that one out.

So I went a little different route with her body design.  In the end, I really like what I came up with.
Comic - Crochet - Catrina Usher Designs

Comic- Crochet - Catrina Usher Designs

Crochet Comic - Catrina Usher Designs


I've uploaded the image to my Cafepress Store.  Please check out some of the cool products you can get there.  (Yeah, I'm totally spamming here, lol). 

Monday, September 9, 2013

Grief, and the stupid things people say.

It's been over a year since my sister died, but I still vividly remember some of the ridiculous things that people said to me at her funeral and soon after her death.  I realize that some people just do not know what to say around someone that is mourning the loss of a loved one.  It is uncomfortable and people just say whatever they can think of that might help the mourning person feel better.  To be honest, if you are feeling that way, it is probably best to not say anything at all.

So here is my list, in no particular order.

1.  "She looks good." - Said while looking down at her in the casket.
     - Wait ... WHA??  No. She does not look good.  She looks dead.  How do you think telling me that my sister looks good in death is going to make me feel any better?  And, if you truly knew my sister, you would not think that she looked good.  If you'd like to say that the funeral parlor did a good job of disguising her injuries, then you would be right.  But to tell me she looks good?  You're a freaking idiot.

2. "It's all part of God's plan."
   - How do you know that?  Are you his freaking secretary?  Did you pencil her death into his schedule for him when he asked you to?  Or perhaps he posted it all up on Google Calendar, and you've been stalking him.  That has to be it.  I'm going to make sure to go check in on his calendar, too.  That way I'll know when to expect the next death he has planned.

3. "How are you doing?" - asked as they hug you at her funeral.
   - Pretty damn good, thanks for asking.  Hey ... let's blow this snoozefest and go grab some beers, m'kay?  Seriously ... what kind of response do you expect from a stupid question like that?  No one is doing good when they are a few days out from losing a loved one.  Don't ask stupid questions.  Ugh.

4. "It will get better with time."
   - Lie.  What a freaking lie.  You know how I know this is a lie?  Because she will STILL be dead with time.  She won't be there for me to call up and talk to.  I won't be able to see her laugh at her kids playing.  I won't be able to hug her and smell her still damp hair.  Don't try to make me feel better by telling me lies.  Does the hurt lesson some with time?  Yeah, it does.  I don't wake up every day sobbing like I did at first.  But "it" is not better.  The "it" is the fact that she is still dead, and I still don't get to see her enjoying her son's lives.

5. "I'm sick of you mourning your sister." - said to me exactly one month after my sister died.  This jewel was from my husband at the time.  He then threw me and the kids out.  Yeah ... not much else to say about this one.

I will say, there is one person that really impressed me.  Her words have stuck with me since she spoke to me at my sister's funeral.   I really have to thank Gena for being so awesome.  I don't think that I will ever forget what she did.  She came up to me and said "There is nothing that I can say that will make this better.  So, can I just give you a hug?"  To me, that was the most understanding, supportive, and kind thing that anyone could ever say to someone mourning.  So think about Gena's words, and perhaps in the future when you are trying to comfort someone that is grieving, you can use them so you don't sound like an idiot.

"There is nothing that I can say that will make this better.  So... can I just give you a hug?" - The best thing to ever say to someone mourning the loss of a loved one.

Friday, August 23, 2013

Allegany State Park - 2013

We went for our fourth annual camping trip to Allegany State Park in the beginning of August.  It was fun, like always.  I was definitely happy to come home, though.  There is just something about coming home and sleeping in your own bed.  LOL, I might be getting old. 

This year we opted to get cabins with electric in them.  That was pretty nice.  It almost took the whole camp feel out of it .... well, except for the bears, bugs, dirt, lack of running water, no bathrooms, and sleeping on cots.  We had Ward trail this year.  I'm pretty sure we will never camp there again.  The bathrooms are way too far away.  The cabins are too close to the road.  If you have kids and you have a weak bladder, I would not recommend Ward trail.

I helped create 39 tie dyed shirts to commemorate our annual trip.  My hands were aching by the end.  Okay, so I really am getting old.  LOL  They turned out nice.  My mother upped the design experience by purchasing an airbrush and creating a stencil for the shirts.

The kids had a blast at the Hootenannny.

We roasted marshmallows and sang songs around the campfire.

We climbed Thunder Rocks.

We visited the Stone Tower.

And we enjoyed spending quality time with each other.

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

The Year In Pictures

 We did our annual camping trip to Allegany State Park.
 Where Timmy finally learned to ride a bike.

 We celebrated Christmas as a family of four.  

 We did our annual New Year's Eve party for the kiddos.

Timmy turned 9
 We celebrated my grandparent's 40th wedding anniversary.

We did our annual trip to Sprague's Maple Farm.

 We searched for Easter eggs on a beautiful Easter day.

 We went on vacation to Virginia!
And my boys got to swim in the ocean for the first time!

We planted some green at our new place.

We made new friends.

 Niko turned 8.

 Adrian turned 7.

 And we froze our butts off swimming in the pond.